I personally think the universe is aligning itself to personally tell me something. For the past few months, I've been on this "search" trying to accentuate my life in some fashion or another. I knew playing derby wasn't it. Even though I love playing derby but that I was using it as a crutch...I didn't want to think about my options. I just wanted to woefully exist; for what, I'm not entirely certain.
Yet lately, that has been harder and harder for me to do, my nomadic tendencies are full thrust sending my wanderlust and thirst for knowledge into overdrive. I can't ignore and I won't ignore it anymore. Last night, I talked to a retired derby chick who owns a local coffee shop here called Dr. Bombay's in Candler Park. Her friend signed her up for the local rotarian club that picked her to go to India for 4 weeks to help women start up their own businesses. A free spirit, she immediately told me about her life, spirituality, derby and the person she is today and who she hopes to become. I loved her immediately and I find it odd that I met someone like her now (or even if it's the only time we'll interact), it's odd that I met her when I'm trying to move forward in my own personal journey. Still, let me dip into my buried Southern roots for a moment long enough to exclaim that "the Lord is tryna tell me somethin'".
Next, lately I have been devouring the website of one, brother who is living life on his terms. I love and appreciate that but even though I'm quickly becoming a huge fan of his blog. I suggest everyone that reads this to check him out, his name is FlyBrother - gotta love that. I decided to read one of his guest posts at Travellious - which is a new site for me - about Sacrifice & Uncertainty. Reading his entry I, at once could feel the tears well up in my eyes NOT because the story was sad (and you all know me, I'm not an overly emotional chick) but because I could sense the freedom, the thirst for knowledge and quenching it and how travel mixed with strangers in a strange land shapes you as a person (and hopefully, the other person as well). It again reinforced to me that I want to travel the world with abandon, take pictures, write, paint and become healthy in both mind and body but even better than that I want to understand human connection and communication on a global level and I want to share that with the world. Not my art - even though, I'll share what I deem good - I want to share communication. Now, how do I connect that into a job or career is beyond me, maybe I'll have to create one for myself, who knows? At least, I'm heading in the right direction. For once, I feel like I should be doing this not for others but for myself.
