It's funny that within the span of 3 days, I have come in contact with three people from my past.
The first one was this boy I had an absolute crush on when I was in middle school and again in high school (even though I was just playing the role of the 100% straight girl at the time). He was tall, thin, into musicals, kind and hilarious - he was perfect (in my eyes, anyway) even though at the time he seemed a little bit "off" not in a bad way but off nonetheless.
Fast forward to this weekend and I decided to look him up on Facebook to see if he was even on there, he was and I emailed him. I had to jog his memory because I don't look like how I used too and afterwards, we decided to bring each other up to speed on our daily activities since high school. I also found out that he is gay and has a lovely partner and lives in New Hampshire. I was not surprised in the least, I told him about my mixed dating history and he was taken aback; it really felt nice to bound again after all these years.
The next one happened this morning. During one of the "breaks" between the African and I, I met this woman at the local lesbian hangout. She seemed really nice with a style all her own and we ended up dancing followed by talking at the end of the night. She seemed nice, she was older than me - I believe she was 39 and she lived a very dramatic, interesting life. Which, should have been a red flag but I told myself I was getting to know her and boy...did I ever. She had enough issues to shake a stick at and it all accumulated with her lying to me (which, she really didn't have to since we weren't dating or anything of that sort), showing out at a public place (which is another no-no) and "assaulting" my friend (which, I believe she did because my friend is smaller than me). Anyway, after cursing her name and saying how crazy she was, I let her go and moved onwards. She did call me a few days later trying to "talk" things out but it quickly spiraled into a blame game, which I had to quickly end because I'm not that type of person and I can't or won't combat crazy shit.
Anyway, she emailed me this morning. Saying how she was apologizing for how she treated me. That she was going through a lot of things but even with all those things, her actions still weren't justified. I replied back in two brief sentences and left it alone. It's cool that she had it in her to apologize but since I am so anti-drama, crazy bullshit right now; I can't even extend myself to come across as open in regards to communication.
The last one was El African. I had to go to court for my traffic accident early this year. For some reason he was called as a witness on my behalf. I didn't know he would get called because I would have made sure he wasn't notified. Anyway, I was hoping not to run into him but wouldn't you know it, I basically ran into him coming down the stairs. He came up to me, we exchanged pleasantries and I prayed that the time would pass fast. The case ended up being thrown out so no more courthouse in Dekalb County (at least, I hope that is the case). We ended up walking towards my car not really saying much to each other, he needed a ride to a place on Jimmy Carter and I gave him a lift (only because I was going in that direction). We talked a little in the car, I took him to his meeting spot. He told me that I needed to get an oil change for my car and that he would come along and pay. That didn't happen because he ended up meeting the car guy and he told me to let me know how much it ended up being and he would put it in my account or he'd figure something out. It was a weird, I didn't feed into it and I just told him thanks. He smiled and said one of our odd sayings to each other, I replied back and then I left.
Even though I can look out our relationship from the outside these days. It does still hurt that you know we were a good match personality wise, I just don't fool myself into believing that how he conducts his life is healthy for me. It's not - he's too co-dependent for my taste and I can't say that I miss us being together even though, at times I do miss him. I haven't decided if I'll get in contact with him to pay for my oil change.
